I never cease to be surprized by how disrespectful my peers are at highschool. The last friday of every month, my high school has an open-mike session during lunch in the cafeteria. Some people are actual dedicated musicians, and others are just popular kids goofing off.
I play piano, sing, and write all of my own songs. I was debating going up there because I'm aware of how rude they are. But when the teacher in charge of the open-mike told me that they were really low on performers I decided to give it my best shot.
Now the group before me was a couple of guys playing a cover of some song on their guitars. The girl before them was popular and even though her singing was awful, the cafeteria quited down a little for her and her friends even applauded her and asked for an encore.
Either they they paid attention because she was singing a popular song or just because she was popular, I don't know. But when I went up there and started to play, it seemed like people got louder. That's not just my imagination - even my friends told me they noticed it too.
Maybe this was because I'm not the most popular girl in the school or maybe it was because I was playing an original song that no one knew. Or it could've even been because of a technical difficulty that caused the microphones to be too quiet. But I attribute it to the fact that people just don't have respect for people like me.
Yeah I get it, okay? I'm a freak in highschool. Bur I can sing and I can play piano. I didn't put all of those years into voice lessons and piano lessons. Oh, and I can write songs and I spend hours doing so. I'm just sick of being upstaged by popular kids who don't put half the work into their performance that I do. It's utterly frustrating.
When will I get my chance? I keep telling myself that if I take the performance opporitunities that are handed to me at school, that at least my peers will respect and give me some credit as more than just 'the weird girl'. But nothing. I don't expect the world to stop spinning or the clouds to part to heaven. But for once, it would be nice to get noticed for the right reasons.
I'm betting that this is a problem that a lot of my fellow singer/songwriters at highschool have. Hopefully after I graduate, I can get out of this social hieracrchy and be heard.
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